1. Where did you grow up?
I grew up on the edge of a rainforest, in a 4-bedroom split level house with my nuclear family. Every day brought warm weather, even when it rained and I had a big backyard, my playground, full of tropical plants, birds, snakes (including coral snakes), and adorable tree frogs, as well as giant poisonous cane toads and the occasional iguana. From birth until age eighteen, I lived in an island paradise, Trinidad. I was surrounded by racially diverse people, and I was taught by and had caregivers, doctors, and dentists, of every race, but mostly people of African and/or Indian descent. I ate food that was influenced by all the ethnic groups that have lived together in my country for centuries. We ate the same ground provision (taro root, eddoes and cassava), eaten by my indigenous ancestors, West African influenced stewed meats and pelau (our national dish), as well as Indian and Chinese dishes that originated here.
Most of the people I knew belonged to some religion, mostly Catholic, various types of Christian, Hindu, and Muslim. I codeswitched seamlessly, speaking one dialect of Trinidadian English with my grandparents, another with my parents and others with my friends at school and at church, depending on their social class and the context. My Dad was a nation-builder, working first in the insurance industry, starting at age sixteen, only a few years after Trinidad became independent from the United Kingdom and a few years before Trinidad would become a Republic, with its own President. Inevitably, he moved into the oil and gas sector that dominates the country’s economy.
What I miss most about my home, is the feeling of being in community when we celebrated Divali, Christmas, and Carnival.
2. Why did you select law librarianship as a career? & 3. When did you develop an interest in foreign, comparative, and/or international law?
For me, questions 2 and 3 are the same question. In 2007, my closest friend, also a law librarian, suggested I consider being a foreign and international law librarian, and she sent me an article by legendary FCIL Librarian Mary Rumsey. Foreign & International Law Librarianship – it was a revelation.
I had always wanted to be an academic and I was excited to use my background in Foreign and International Law, and my linguistic skills to teach, research, and contribute to the scholarly community in a meaningful way. I began library school that same year, enrolling in my fourth (and so far, final) graduate program. The following year, 2008, I began interning with FCIL librarian, Vince Moyer at UC Hastings College of Law (now UC Law San Francisco).
Looking back on my journey, I am grateful to my younger self for making this choice because the time I’ve spent in this role has been professionally rewarding.
4. Who is your current employer? How long have you worked there?
In 2023, Vince contacted me to tell me that he would be retiring and that his position would soon be coming open. Having had fond memories of working with Vince, I applied for the position and began working here at UC Law SF in December of 2023.
5. Do you speak any foreign languages?
My foreign language skills are all quite rusty, but at some point in time I was fluent in Spanish, and I could understand and speak a fair amount of French as well. Although I am far from fluent, I have a working knowledge of Portuguese and Dutch and I’ve devoted considerable time to learning German, Polish, Swedish, and Maya, although I would not claim any kind of proficiency in these last four languages. You could say that I enjoy the process of learning languages, even when fluency (or even basic competency) remains elusive.
6. What is your most significant professional achievement?
Being the Chair of the FCIL-SIS is the professional achievement that I am most proud of because I have such a great admiration for the FCIL-SIS community. It was an honor to serve in that role. That said, I am a big believer in the concept that the personal is political. I think that living my life loudly, as a disabled, neurodivergent, gender non-conforming, queer, Black, mixed-race Trinidadian immigrant and speaking truth to power in my blog posts and professional speaking engagements is an ongoing way in which I significantly contribute to the profession of law librarianship, in a way that only I can do. I say only I can do because my persistent drive for autonomy and the need to pursue freedom, equity and dignity for everyone, impels me to highlight uncomfortable truths about our profession, regardless of the consequences to me and my career. None of us is free, until all of us are free.
7. What is your favorite food?
I love eating Trinidadian food and my favourite food to eat whenever I go back to Trinidad is the Indo-Trinidadian street food, doubles, but bus’ up shut and curry pumpkin is a close second.
8. What song makes you want to get up and sing/dance?
I love music in general and I’m not very picky. I’m easily the first one on the dance floor anywhere I go. I could easily dance for hours to a good playlist of Trinidadian Soca music. One of my favourites is Hello, by Kes the Band but I also love 3 Canal, Patrice Roberts and the Queen of Bacchanal, Destra Garcia. I grew up listening to Mr. Fete, Machel Montano, singing professionally since he was a child, he is in a class by himself, and reflects the True Trini vibe, he has shared our love of music, dancing and celebrating all over the world and when I feel alone, I can listen to his music and remember where I came from.
9. What ability or skill do you most wish you had (that you don’t have already)?
I wish I had entrepreneurial skills so I could have a lucrative side hustle.
10. Aside from the basic necessities, what is one thing you can’t go a day without?
A disabled friend once told me that every disabled person has a part-time job caring for a disabled person. Knowing this helps me to forgive myself for all the things I should and want to do daily but can’t. When you have ADHD, there’s no such thing as a routine. You might be able to start a new habit for a few days, sometimes even months but usually this is either because you’re depending on an externally imposed structure, or because you have a system in place that you actively and intentionally use to keep that habit going with tremendous, sustained effort. This is because the prefrontal cortex of people with ADHD is different. This is the part of the brain that affects executive functioning skills (eg. self-restraint and self-motivation).
There’s very little that isn’t a “basic necessity” that I do consistently every day, and to be honest, I frequently go without the necessities because of executive dysfunction, and my variable energy levels. The only thing I do every day is breathe, but I do have some things that I try to do as often as possible. Since my sympathetic nervous system is easily activated, I practically live in fight, flight, freeze, or fawn mode. I have found that if I can meditate, exercise, write, speak my truth to an actively listening friendly audience, be creative, and immerse myself in a hot bath (not all at the same time, although I do often meditate in the bathtub), then I can complete the stress response cycle and keep burnout at bay.
11. Anything else you would like to share with us?
I’m a different person than the one who joined this profession in 2010. In some ways, I’m less ebullient and more realistic. I’m more aware of the way that social systems impact our lives and I’m more committed to decolonizing my own mind. I spend more time focused on my own healing journey and how to share my insights with people who are hungry for the wisdom I have earned. I’ve experienced extreme racism in the South. I’ve worked in law firms as well as academic law libraries. I’ve lost one of my parents to brain cancer at a relatively young age (his, not mine). I’ve been more insistent that people address me by my chosen name of Dean, a homonym for my last name, as I lean further into my non-binary, gender chaotic identity. I have my dream job and I live in a city where I feel a strong sense of community and belonging. I’m currently recovering from knee surgery after more than half a decade of operating with a torn meniscus. This has given me a lot of down time to think, alone in my apartment, with my plants for company.
My heart is tender for the youth of today, what they are facing with the economy and the climate crisis and especially, the BIPOC* and LGBTQIA community, who are faced daily with reminders in the news of how little their lives are valued. How little their education and experience are valued, given that the wage gap still exists between them and White men doing the same jobs, with the same credentials and experience. Many are struggling in the current economy, but we don’t have to struggle alone.
I want to share a message of hope. There are things that we can’t change, but what we can change is the way we respond to the challenges of this time. I think the answer to most of our problems lies in remaining focused on what we can do in the present, and on community building. I’ve relied on a lot of people these last six weeks as I’ve been recovering from surgery and unable to walk. This time of vulnerability and not being able to be my usual hyper independent self, I’ve been humbled by the way that my community showed up for me. Ultimately, if we live long enough, we’ll all need help. You may have specific family members who you’re intending to rely on, but no one knows what the future holds – I thought I would have my Dad for another 20 years as both of his parents lived into their 90s. My call is to all of us to spend more time connecting with each other, being vulnerable and supportive. Let’s be kind to each other and build resilient communities so that when the hard times come, we have a whole community of beloved people to lean on.
That said, I am a huge extrovert, so if you see me around at a conference, please feel free to connect with me, I’d love to meet you and hear all about you, your career, and your library. If you are interested in a career in FCIL librarianship, and you want to get my perspective, you can also just reach out to me at deane@uclawsf.edu.
* BIPOC: Black, indigenous, and other people of color.